個人檔案耀可及 Reachable Yiu, the I...相片部落格清單更多  |  工具 說明 |
|
3 December I am so far from perfect (I know you knew that!) I haven't been cycling for almost two weeks. I keep asking myself why, and I can think of a major reason.
I have been pretty much cycling on the same route since September 22nd, and I am bored. It sounds like I'm whining. Maybe so, but I have been cycling alone for almost two months on the same route, and I need a change, but yet I haven't got a chance to explore alternatives.
The journey has been much more lonely than I imagined, and I don't know what to do about it yet.
Don't take me wrong. I ain't giving up. I'll go check out joining a gym and thus the spinning classes soon.
I ain't letting my baby down. 25 November My new admiree 最近“愛上的人”人稱“泰山”的，現在正職為一電台 DJ。我只是昨天突然想“看看”他的盧山真面目，立刻愛上了他！
今日，找到一段短片，片中有他脫衣的片段。看後，更“愛”他。（哈哈！）
Something needed to be done Last week, the temperature in HK had dropped to around 11C-13C, and I decided to take a week off from cycling.
This week, the temperature is back to around 18C-20C, and I still haven't cycled yet. And I'm starting to feel a little concern.
Last night, after some nice time with a guy, I went out for dinner, and decided to give it a go on cycling. While I was walking home, I started to feel headache on the left side of the frontal lobe. When I got home, the pain had got so severe I had to lay down.
Next thing I knew/remember, I was having a dream that was set in some country area, and I was surrounded by a bunch of (gweilo) friends.
When I finally woke up, it was already 6am.
I'll try (cycling) again tonight. 23 November It isn't about winning. It is about not losing. I had not participating in a tennis tournament for a few years, and this November I decided to test my tennis skill by participating in one. The one in Tai Po (TP). You may be intrigued why I am playing in TP instead of Shatin. Well, the reason wasn't that special. I wasn't paying attention to the whole 'reginal tennis tournament season' until too late, and TP tournament was the only one I caught before they closed for enrollment. *grin*
At any rate, I played the first match today. It was a close match. I didn't play the first 6 games very well, so, my opponent was leading 2-4. Then I was able to hold my breath and made it back to 4-4.
It was then his turn to serve. He held his serve. I was hence only one game from losing. I talked to my own head, "CY, you know you can play much better game, so, why don't you focus on playing what you can like you often do on a regular Monday, and you'll be fine." So, I held my next game, and it was 5-5. Then, my opponent started making some unforced and forced errors, and I finally broke his service game. I then continued to play my own game, and I won. 7-5.
If you are also a tennis player, you would know that a big part of the tennis game is about the mind. I felt great about today at the court mainly because I was able to calm myself, and to focus on hitting the balls the way I do. It required a good level of mental work, and I felt that I achieved it nicely.
So looking forward to next Saturday afternoon! 19 November Sign of getting old, maybe Last evening at K was a trivia night, but somehow I didn't feel like going out, and at the "same time", I met someone on the net and decided to have a quickie with him. I went to his room, "did" him (technically he did me), and left. There was no conversation, and no any kind of "play".
While I was leaving the room, I thought to myself, "Wow it was a very good "job", but, it was still very weird to have absolutely no conversation at all." Right at that moment, I felt that I was reassured again that "quickies" no longer could satisfied me. They could be exciting for maybe an hour? Two? But in the long run, they really mean not much, if not nothing.
What added to the dilemma was that this guy was exactly my type and I could "do nothing about him" except for that 20-30 mins. I couldn't hold him, I couldn't cuddle with him for the evening; I couldn't have any sort of mental exchange. Many queer guys would love to have many "relationships" like this, but not me. Not anymore.
Wait. Oh, my, God! |
耀可及 Reachable Yiu, the Inscrutable, the Loco Chino我不怕分享，怕你不敢看。I dare. Dare you? |
|||||||
傳送私人訊息
訂閱 RSS 摘要
告訴朋友
新增至 Live.com
新增至您的朋友網路
註冊通知
|
|
